Apparté

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Months passed and this anxiety crested. It soared, some days to levels unbearable and I would feel as if I would burst and others it would leave me on the brink of the chasm again. Desperate, yet not enough. A coward I discovered myself to be, a lousy liar and such a fraud but the weight of these defects would not compensate for the enormity that I was contemplating doing.

The bubble had to burst, the dream had to end. No more fantasies, no more "what ifs" and no more maybes. Only what I knew I felt, what I knew I must know and have and touch and live through. Against the deep heart feelings, there are no armors, no shields, no protections to save you o help you. Only the naked truth would do.

I had to take the plunge and drown.


Under your spell again.
I can't say no to you.
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand.
I can't say no to you.

Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
I can't breathe but I feel...

Good enough,
I feel good enough for you.

Drink up sweet decadence.
I can't say no to you,
And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind.
I can't say no to you.

Shouldn't let you conquer me completely.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
Can't believe that I feel...

Good enough,
I feel good enough.
It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good.

And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall.
Pour real life down on me.
'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough.
Am I good enough for you to love me too?

So take care what you ask of me,
'cause I can't say no.

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Aaridys
Everything happens to everybody sooner or later if there is time enough. Georges Bernard Shaw
Humeur: Steady
Musique: "Good Enough" Evanescence